Loss this week: -1
Total lost: 7.4 lbs
Let's talk hormones for a minute, shall we? So, a year ago, I started to have some interesting symptoms. My hair was falling out, I had insomnia, I couldn't focus, had hot flashes . . . it was crazy. After a very involved google search, I found a site that listed the 34 most common menopause symptoms, and I had 29 of them. Seriously - at 32 I was having that many symptoms. Not cool.
In February I finally got around to seeing my ob-gyn. To make a long story short - I took the easy route. I could have done a ton of blood work (and had to come back three separate times to draw blood at different parts of my cycle). But we knew that I have low progesterone (that's that whole infertility thing I went through), so we decided to just try taking some. So I'm on this little completely round pill for 2 weeks out of every cycle.
And I love it. My hair loss has slowed way down, I sleep normal, I'm not a crazy person (ok, that last one is relative.) But it does have one nasty side effect: weight gain. I gained two pounds every month while I've been on it.
Guess who started those pills again 5 days ago.
Guys - this week was hard. Seriously, ridiculously, hard. I didn't want to be good - I wanted to stuff my face with whatever I could find. I didn't want to figure out points, or to stay with in them, and so honestly I was so. SICK. of FRUIT!! Plus we celebrated Buddy's birthday AND we had the 4th of July, AND my Hubby decided to go buy my favorite treat too. I knew I should want to be good - but I could barely come up with the desire to want to want to be good.
And I really wasn't that good. I was down right awful a few days. Saturday night I had a good long talk with myself. I knew something was not great here, but why on earth was it being so hard. It didn't take long for me to come to a realization: I had stopped praying for help. Huh. Imagine that - if you stop praying for help, He's going to stop helping! And I realized again the weakness within me. I CANNOT do this on my own. There is just no way.
Yesterday was full of prayers again - both of apology and of help. And it was better . . .but still hard. I know I will only make this goal with His help. So here's to a better week . . . and lots of time on my knees.
YOU GO GIRL!! What an example!! You can do this thing! Something our WW class teacher often reminds us is that the weight game is a life long journey. I want it all off now!! I also have to remember even if it is coming off a .5 a week, I know I am making better choices and that is good. Yes there are still days that I want a treat and have a treat, but I can be okay with one instead of eating the whole store :D Love you and your example!!
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