Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Whose wish will Come?
This long awaited for child.
Is not perfect.
No child is.
But there's a problem. A minor problem. One that I want to be fixed so desperately.
She doesn't talk.
I take that back. She never stops talking. Unfortunately, it's not real words that she speaks.
'Lil has a total of 4 words, and only one of those is a "real" verbal word. She waves goodbye; She signs please; She excitedly proclaims "Mmmmmmmm!" if something tastes good; and she says "uh-oh".
That's it. No "mama". No "dada".
By this point, she should have about 50 words.
My major in college was Communicative Disorders. I know she has a language delay/disorder (the only difference between the two is severity). I know she's smart. I know with some therapy, she'll get it, and I think she'll get it quickly.
For a very long time, I didn't really think about it. She was older when she figured out how to crawl - but then started moving super fast. She didn't start walking until 15 months - but then three days later was literally running after Grandma's cat. I thought she'd do the same with talking - nothing, then start talking in sentences.
Then I realized that I'd been waiting for more than five months.
A month ago, we started the process to see if she qualifies for early childhood services. In all the testing, I realized that she's just on the line. She might qualify, but she might not be delayed enough. We should hear back any day now.
I want her to qualify.
I want my daughter to talk to me. I want the screaming frustrations to stop. I want to hear her say my name for real. I want to understand what she's trying to tell me.
I think Hubby doesn't want his child to be "diagnosed" with a problem. He doesn't think she needs help. He doesn't remember just how much our other children were saying at this age.
Whose wish will come true? We'll just have to wait and see.