Gyp

What I thought I bought:

The bestest happy treats ever.
What I actually bought
:
Just plain! I was SOOO flippin disappointed! Why on earth put them in the same color bags?!?!
*and no, this was not to blow my get healthy plans. This was to fill my awesome advent calendar. So, yes, it's just my kids that will be eating them. But I really wanted to snitch some leftovers and now I can't!

run

5:21. Alarm goes off.  Just enough time to snooze once.
I don’t want to get up. I don’t want to move. I’m cozy snuggled up under the covers.
5:30. Beeping fills the room again. Sigh. Shoes on. Hair up.  I can do this.
Movie on – with captions, the sound is so quiet.  I do my best to keep the rest of the house asleep.
And I run.  A very old treadmill insists that I – not it – sets the pace.  I have to force it to keep going as fast as I’d like.  But I run.
Not far. Not fast. But for 30 minutes my heart beats faster, sweat beading along my hairline. 
I hate getting up early.  But I hate not doing something about my weight more. I watch the time tick closer to that thirty mark more than I read the captions on the movie.  “60 more seconds” I chant. “You can do this!”
40 now . . . just 19 more. . . 3 . 2 . 1. YES! I slow to a walk and begin a cool down.
I feel more awake than three weeks ago. I feel confident, capable, like I can actually make a difference this time.
I will not be down 10 pounds by the first of December.  Too much baking and not enough will power. But I can be down 5.  And 5 is a beautiful number.

Confessions

Ok all, it’s time for some confessions.

I’m fat.

Whew! I said it.

I currently weigh 30 lbs more than when got pregnant with ‘Lil. Actually, I weigh about 2 lbs less than I did when I DELIVERED her. Even more disgusting, I weigh 13 lbs more than when she was 8 weeks old. Yup. I lost 15 pounds, and then gained most of it back. And since then I’ve just been playing with the same 3 lbs.

And I’m done. I’m tired of feeling just gross and big. I’m done making excuses. I’m ready to really change.

Last time I felt this way, I lost 25 pounds in about 4 months. (this was just before my last pregnancy). Part of that motivation was the idea of “well, if I can’t get pregnant, at least I can make my body healthier to prepare it”.

And here I am, 3 years later, in the exact same situation.  It’s just dumb to weigh this much AGAIN!

As of today, I have 21 days until I head to visit family. My goal: 10 lbs off by then.

*in true confession mode, I thought I posted this when I had 25 days left. I’m already down 1 pound!

I know that’s a big goal – especially considering Thanksgiving is in the middle of all that. But I also know it’s really easy to loose 5 lbs the first week or so of trying, and 7 just is hard to remember (I’m at a nice round number now – in more ways than one! and 10 is easier math to figure out!)

A few weeks ago, I ran a 5k. My time was much better than I thought it would be, especially considering how much I ended up walking due to the world’s biggest charlie horse.  Now my goal is to actually RUN the whole 3 miles.  This week, I’ve run four mornings out of five.  I’m up to running for 30 minutes (plus 10 more walking). According to my little ticker up top, that burned 400 calories. I also threw in a 25 minute bike ride to the grocery store with ‘Lil in the trailer behind me, for another 150 calories. If I keep this up, and stop snitching all the leftover Halloween candy, 10 lbs should come of without much of a problem.

I promise I’m not going to turn this into a weight loss blog. But being accountable to someone is such a HUGE motivator to me! I won’t post every day, but I am going to try to check in several times a week. I re-did my ticker at the top of my blog, and this time – THIS TIME it’s going down!

 

and staying there!

keepin busy

Hey all!

So, I’ve been MIA for a little while. Nothing big, just a very full, crazy life.  Want to see some of what I’ve been up to?

Frist off, remember that bag I made?

Well, I was hired to make three more.

Yup. People actually paid me to make bags.  Now, two of those . . .

I DID NOT PICK THE FABRICS!!!!

 

And they are not at all what I would have chosen. But, my friend wanted them, and so, there you go.

But that last one,

 

I do like.

 

I got to pick it out, and it was very fun! (and Em, I’ll try to stick it in the mail soon!)

Next up, I’ve been working on a website! Hah! like I have a clue how to do a website!  But I DO know how to blog.  I have a couple of friends who own a craft business.  They wanted a blog type website so people could see all they offer. 

(aren’t those gourds so fun!)

Only problem – it was a Wordpress blog.

I know, EVERYONE says wordpress is the place to be if you want to grow a business, and it’s so much better, and blah blah blah. But let me tell you – it’s freakn’ annoying to use! I can’t find anything, adding pictures was a nightmare, and it was literally taking me over an hour to do a single post.

So instead, I spent 5 hours figuring out how to change it over to blogger. It’s not an easy process! But I finally got it to work! (If anyone wants details for how I did this, just email me). I still have a lot of work to do on it, but at least now I CAN work on it!

Then, I’m in charge of a big progressive dinner for the ladies at my church this Thursday. That’s been another HUGE time spender. I think it’s going to be awesome. . . as long as people actually show up.  Everyone is out of town this week! What’s up with that! But, I’m very excited about it, and I’ll be sure to post pictures when we’re done!

So that’s my life right now (along with being a mom and cleaning and helping my sister’s kids out and digging up 239473 lbs of lava rocks and planting and all that!)

What are you up to?