I just went 3 months without blogging.
Not a word. Not a picture. (but LOTS of projects!)
This is happening too often to me. And the process goes the same way every time. Here's what it looks like.
I blog regularly. I enjoy it. I start thinking of more posts. Then I start looking at other people's writing. Other people's projects. Other people's lives.
Then I do one of two things. I start thinking my life and blog aren't enough. That I'm not enough. That my words are silly and pointless and meaningless. So I gradually stop writing at all.
Or I decide that my stuff is good, but needs to be AMAZING so maybe I can get really cool and maybe even get to the point I make money off of this, thus justifying the time I spend here. This road leads to even worse results than the first. I start doing JUST TOO MUCH. I try to turn this little corner of the webbernets into something like Ucreate or The Nester.
And I fail. As I try to do projects and talk about them, I delete post after post after post. All I can see is how unpolished my work is. I don't take enough pictures. My lighting is bad. My writing lacks personality. My projects are the same thing everyone else has done before.
And then I find reasons to stay away from the blog. I don't want to even start to think about that failure. Very quickly I'm doing nothing but blog stalking everyone else.
I'm TIRED of this cycle! I think this is the third or fourth version of this since I started this thing almost 5 years ago.
So this is me (hi me!) attempting to stop it once again. I want to write for me. I need to remember that I'm enough without anyone reading this blog, and that yet again I realize why I don't really want to make money off this thing. Yes, it would be nice. But I'm not willing to put a full time job's worth of work into this thing.
There will be projects still, of course. And pictures. But I want more of my personality more than anything.
Here's to a new start. I just hope it lasts this time.