minor miracle

Lost this week: 0
Total loss: -20.8

So I didn't move at all numbers wise this week.  But actually, that's really rather a victory for me.

My kiddos had 3 days off of school last week, so we went on a whirlwind trip to visit family.  I wasn't great either.  I had McDonalds twice (mmmmm bacon egg cheese biscuts for breakfast).  I had a gloriosly greasy sandwich and cream soup.  I discovered that my mom's awesome fudge is A. MAZE. ING if you schmear some peanut butter on top.

But with all of that, I broke even.  Because I also was sensible for my regular breakfasts.  I paid attention and stopped when I was feeling satisfied (I'm actually leaving food on my plate!). I let myself eat what I wanted, but never went overboard.

For me, this isn't just about loosing weight.  I don't feel like I'm on a diet.  I'm changing my life.  I honestly plan on eating like this for the rest of my life.  Granted, I won't always be activly trying to loose, so I'll add back in some points.  But to get to the point that I know when to stop, that I can indulge but not regret it, that is just huge.

huge mental victory

Lost this week: -.4
Total loss: -20.8


 I wasn't going to say this, 'cause it's slightly embarrassing just how big I was, but

I'M BELOW 200 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't been below 200 since 2010.  This is an ENORMOUS victory for me.  It was a small actual loss this week, but the mental high of seeing a 1 first instead of a 2 is indescribable.  

I've tried so many times to eat healthy, to get this weight off, to get moving, to do what I needed to be a healthy me. But it never really worked, mostly 'cause I would only stick with it for a couple of days.  But this, this is the start of an actual life change.  I will get healthy. I will get fit. and I will be awesome!

I made it AWESOME

So we had to buy a new van.


I'm super excited/super frusterated about the whole thing.  I've hated my old van for about a year.  It was ALWAYS in the shop; I couldn't ever trust it.  It had a lot of miles and was falling apart in places, and parts were getting really hard to find for it. 

But it was paid off.  It was all ours.  I knew how to do everything with it.  I didn't care about where I parked it because it didn't matter if it go scratched or dented or whatever. 

Our new van is 7 years old, but has such low miles it's like it's only 2 years old.  We got an amazing price on it.  It has a rediculous number of extras on it.  It has much more space inside so my kids don't hit each other.

But it means a signifigant car payment.  And I don't know how to use all the extras.  And I'm scared that I'll get in an accident or something. 

And it's silver.

I'm not really a fan of silver.  Everyone has a silver car.  I liked that my old van was unique; I could always pick it out.  This one, not so much.

So I needed to change that.  I asked for input on Face book. I googled (a LOT) for ideas.  And I finally found MarkedCo on etsy.

I lover her stuff.

Super fun, nice and quirky.  Adorable ideas. 

I asked her to customize something for me (just a little customize. It was something designed for a laptop, and I wanted it car sized).  She was super easy to work with and got my stuff to me quickly. 

And I made my mini van AWESOME.

Wannna see?

So here's my van.

 

This is on the rear passenger window. I think it's my new motto.

And then moving on to the really fun side:

It starts on the rear drivers side window

And wonders over to the back.

 And ends with a tiny little wand as my fake wizard dissapears.

I love it.  And I can find my van now.  It makes me super happy!